Tag Archives: Life

Death Anniversary

Let it hurt. Let it bleed. Let it heal. And let it go.

– Nikita Gill

2015 ends up to be the loneliest year of my life. It’s a rollercoaster ride of emotional turmoil. It’s the year I cried the most. There has never been a day that I haven’t thought of my mother. There is never a week that I didn’t shed a tear. Anxiety creeps in to distract my solitude. My life is a chaos, with nobody to turn to, even the person I trusted the most.

My mother’s first year death anniversary is coming up soon. This was how my 2015 kicked off last year. Full of anxiety and heartbreak till the end. I even hit my quota of unfair share of tough life on Christmas day.

To heal from the pain of sudden goodbye is a long process. I hope this new year, It will hurt a little less. To let go of what I don’t deserve. To journey and find my own peace and be happy again.

To my beloved mother, whom I dearly missed. I know life has been so unfair with you too, and I thank you for being strong all those times. I’m sorry for letting you down. I miss you.

 

Strangers Again

Eight years ago, I was lucky enough to meet a bunch of beautiful individuals who came from different backgrounds. I was optimistic and full of hope then, as if nothing will shatter my dreams as I took on my first step to a whole new world, first world country, that is Dubai.

The first country I’ve ever set foot into saved my own. The first time I was away with my family, living independently. Those beautiful individuals became good friends who took care of me during my toughest plight and lowest point. I’m really grateful and feeling nostalgic, reminiscing those days we shared laughters, conversations, sadness, tears, book reviews, tears for Harry Potter. I miss them.

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Next Life

“I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity.”

― Gilda Radner

Why in the world people expect big things or even the smallest things from other people and somehow ends up being disappointed yet they keep on doing so?  It’s a tiring routine. But no matter how we try to stop ourselves from delving into uncertain dreams, we keep on circling around it.

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No Resolutions 2013

Inspired by Lucy Torres-Gomez article in Philippine Star, I’ll make a list of things I want to achieve in 2013 with a twist! Not the typical goals that I’ll forget in a week or two, but something I’ll be excited to achieve each month.

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93 Million Miles

Summarizes what I feel right now.

‘Cause here it comes,
It’s a light, A beautiful light,
Over the horizon into our eyes.

Jason Mraz is LOVE.